I’m young and have a lot ahead of me, a lot of time to do shit ahead of me, etc. etc. But, knowing that, I just hope that I use that time wisely or at least in a way in which I will eventually have my life together in one way or another. 

At the same time though 

The anxiety of something that has yet to come or will not come has me a bit worried. Really worried in fact at those times when I’m alone left to my thoughts.

Shit can get scary bruh. ‘Tis the truth.

tsk tsk

It’s sad to see when the place upon which you have placed your thoughts has become nothing more than a barren wasteland devoid of any good content. Where your thoughts have slowly dwindled to the point where nothing is worth saying, and that worth saying is too lazy to make it’s way on to the keyboard. It’s a choice to be heard and to put your words out there as driving forces of whatever they may be, but still, wasn’t it a good thing for what it was? And with being such a good thing, what had happened? A Lazy set of fingers, dumbed down thoughts, and a tongue that’s unable to communicate?

Where did it all go? 

I mean sure, content may be present at times, but where is the active force behind it? Have we become that lazy to where we can’t even respond back when called?

I dunno, I’m just rambling on again about nonsense.

didnt go so well last night.

i choked.

To be real, i feel as if I have strayed from the ideals and practices that once helped define me in a good manner(in my opinion of what good is). I feel as if I have lost a piece of character. 

Compassion, humbleness, and all around positivity amongst other things, have fled my being it seems.

Well…not really fled, more like lied dormant in the most deepest, darkest, locked away room of my self sleeping; too lazy to get up. What happened, I do not know but I do know is that I WILL recover, and I WILL get up and climb back to homeostasis; stability.

I’ve got a lot of searching to do as always, I’ve just been to lazy to allow it to happen as of late. i’m trying to change that.

…in other news, I need to stop complaining.

performing on the first with the guys. lightweight nervous. i’m a noob.

I need to learn to stop complaining.